Get stoned!!!
How do you feel when you know your ex has moved on and is not single anymore.. good, bad or nothing??
When I got to know, I wished I felt good or at the least nothing.. but no.. it wasn’t so.. I tried a lot to convince myself that this is how life is; girl – no relationship is pure and it is all fake. But instead, I felt bad and worst of all I felt sad for myself.
I remember, once when we were just having a conversation, and I asked him ‘would you get involved with another girl if ours didn’t work out’ and he replied ‘not for atleast five years’:). Believe me, I did feel bad then, but there was no point in bringing it up.. whatever be it, he is already into another relationship and guess what .. it’s hardly been a year.. well this is what life is and this is how men are..:)
It’s funny to see how human mind reacts to certain things. It’s funny to see how human mind has no control over their emotions. I don’t blame him for anything now. It’s true that time and distance heals everything. But still there are times in your life when the past keeps cropping up and you can’t erase everything out of your life completely. It’s like a part of you has been stolen forever and yet you want it. You act hard and harsh but you never forget what you really are.
Let live!!!
She decides,
to go with the wind,
carrying the pain and the cries.
She is scared,
She fears the road,
She weeps and she screams.
She tries to move,
with the time,
with the wind,
and no sign.
She senses,
a new breeze,
coming her way.
She is confused,
She has to decide,
She wants to disappear.
She has no option.
She decides,
to go with the wind,
with the future.
A future,
worth living,
worth risking.
Deviled!!!
Sometimes, some people are so annoying. They just can’t stop praising themselves. All they need is someone to whom they can tell how great and lucky they are. And you’re there listening to their shit with just a hmm…. and it sucks, especially when your mind is playing games and you are trying to get your priorities clear.
And such people just bump in at the most unexpected time and irritate you, thereby making you realize what you have lost and what you don’t have. All what I feel like telling them is “I hate to have this blasted discussion”. It is that minute of time when you just want to close all your doors at their faces and say good-bye. All what you can hope is that you get one stupid call and escape them for the moment. But none of such things happen, and you are there with a big artificial smile and saying hmm.. right… yeah… and feel so pathetic. You can feel your patience being tested and sense how fast you are losing it.
Oh!! My life!!:)
Choose your own road….
It’s strange. It’s strange to see the changing colors of human being. Yesterday, after several days, my manager made me feel wanted. He was doing everything possible to trap me into his words. He wanted to desperately pull me into an initiative which would have benefited him as a manager, but not me, where I am still in the stage of trying to make my profile and career strong.
He has been extremely insensitive and unconcerned towards the progress of my career, and time and again, he has proved the same. Yesterday he went furious over me for considering another offer over his. He never expected me to do that. He believed he has played a clever game and has already trapped me in his game. And he could not believe that I actually said a NO to him as I had been working under him for several years. He was quietly angry over my decision and was trying all he could to hide his anger. The problem was he had already committed to the senior managers even before my approval. And he strongly believed that I would not oppose him. And now it was costing him his word of commitment.
But, I had my own reasons to not accept his offer. First of all, the other opportunity was much better and would add more value to my profile rather than what he was offering. I even considered several individual’s opinion, and they all felt the same. And secondly, I have know my manager for around two and a half years, and I have seen his selfish nature of getting his work done. I had already lost respect for a manager like him, and I could not let him again play with me. This was my opportunity and I chose the best for me.
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