tune kyu na kaha…
maine keh to diya
par tumne samjha nahi
dil ki baatein jo thi
woh kahan mit gayi
tumhara haal na mera sa hai
tumhari khushi mein bhi gham sa hai
na hum keh sake
na tum samajh paaye
dil ki baatein jo thi
woh dil mein hee reh gayi
tumne apna jahan hai bana liya
kho se gaye ho naye jahan mein tum
baat adhoori chod gaye ho tum
iska ehsaas na ab tumko raha
phir se aaye ho nazar mein tum
dil mein uthi hai chahat phirse
jaane kyu yeh umang ab hai chidi
jab iska na matlab koi raha
lamha beet gaya
ab na ho phir pehal
kuch baatein adhoori hee sahi
Let live!!!
She decides,
to go with the wind,
carrying the pain and the cries.
She is scared,
She fears the road,
She weeps and she screams.
She tries to move,
with the time,
with the wind,
and no sign.
She senses,
a new breeze,
coming her way.
She is confused,
She has to decide,
She wants to disappear.
She has no option.
She decides,
to go with the wind,
with the future.
A future,
worth living,
worth risking.
Showers again….
It’s quite some time that I even logged into wordpress account. Off late, I have been quite occupied with my work and several other things and thank God for keeping me so busy, inspite of the fact that I have been frustrated to an extent due to my work. But I still want to thank you for keeping my mind off the thoughts that tortured me.
It is true that time heals everything, and I have changed with time and so have my thoughts. I am no more the same person I used to be while I was in school, college or a few months back. And yes, I like the change. I feel good about the circumstances that have got changes within me. And, I feel good about myself. I feel I have crossed several milestones in my life.
I have always asked God for the better things in my life, and he has been too generous towards me. And as well made me realize of the pros and cons of my desires:). I just want to thank you for keeping me going strong through the times when I had lost all the faith in humanity and in you. And you never fail to get back my faith in you by giving me the best I ought to have.
Thank you for everything and love you for all the happiness you’ve got in my life. Be with me always. Love you.
This is me…
Sometimes I feel there is a lot I can tell you about me, and sometimes I am left searching for words to describe me. And that is me, confused, daring, honest, unpredictable, detached and unconventional. A typical Aquarian best described by Linda Goodman with a few exceptions.
I believe freedom to live life your own way is every individual’s right, and to me my freedom is very important. Freedom to me means not living life on others terms, be it the people who I love or my colleagues at work. I hate being controlled and guided in their own way. If you have thoughts, just give me the options and leave it to me to make my decisions. Do not force your decisions on to me, I get highly agitated. Set me free to learn from my own mistakes. This is not my attitude, this is how I am. I will love you and respect you all the more once you let me be the way I am. Do not possess me, I belong only to myself.
I still don’t know what kind of a man I would like to spend my entire life with. I have given a serious thought to this facet of my life, and am still doing the analysis. But one thing is for sure, I cannot love someone unless he is my very good friend. He has to be someone who knows me in and out. He has to be someone whom I respect and admire, a respect not demanded. He should be someone who would know when I need space and when I want to be wanted. He should be conversative, smart, loyal, inspiring, interesting, flirting and someone who could make me laught out loud even when I am sixty. I am not asking for a miracle to occur, but a hope still remains.
Keep the faith!!!
We make mistakes. We hurt others emotions knowingly and unknowingly. We believe our life is more important than other’s. Sometimes we even annoy others for no reason. We scold people. We curse people. We blame others for our incomplete dreams and aspirations. We believe we go wrong because of others influence on our decisions. We make our own decisions and yet fear the outcome. And there are many like these people, including me. We all want the best for ourselves and we do realize what all we lose on our way of getting the best. And then we hate ourselves and believe that everything happened for the best, which I can never figure out, no matter how much I try.
I have crossed twenty five years of my life and am still not sure what I want from my life. Do I really want anything out of my life? This question keeps haunting me several times and I never find an answer to it. All I want is to be happy and just happy. And this happpiness is very very very expensive which I only happen to get in bits.
But now I’ve realized that happiness is in being happy with others. Your happiness has no meaning when it hurts others. I’ll try not to live a lie again. And today is the day I turn my life around the way it should have been. I have realized that I got to move on and be whom I am. And I am gonna do everything I can.
He is….
He inspires me to think and grow
He admires me when I achieve a little
He encourages me when I lose faith
He appreciates me when I want to be
He needs me more than I do
He supports me when he knows I am right
He listens when I want someone to be heard
He understands what I want when
He smiles when he sees me happy
He understands why I am depressed
He knows when I need him
He knows what is important to me
He is my best friend
He is my soulmate
He is ….. a DREAM!!!
Stranger!!!
I don’t know whether this happens only with me or have you also been in such situations??? Sometimes, some stranger just keeps passing by you very often making his presence felt, for no reason. But you do have some wierd thoughts running through your mind which also gets a naughty smile on your face.
As of now, I am thinking the same. There is a guy who seems to have been crossing my mind very often lately. It was almost two months back when I first saw him at a lounge. Our eyes met once again while we came out of the lounge’s restroom, and he smiled..a crooked smile though and he looked very cute thennnn. And then I see him once again in my company’s parking lot and surprisingly, we acknowledge each other’s presence just through our eyes. Then we again crossed at a coffee shop, but this time I guess he did not see me. And just a few weeks back he happened to overtake my vehicle and did turn his head back and gave me a look. I don’t know if it was done on purpose or was just an accidant. And the last week, he appeared all of a sudden just to help me with the door at my workplace. And now, guess what.. he just happens to sit a few seats away from me. I now have to everyday cross by his desk to move around. Ain’t it strange??
It is strange … and I know there is no reason for this. We are just employees of the same firm with no other reason. It’s funny and just a thoughtless thing to have even passed my mind. But only such junks keep crossing my mind. Uh……. empty mind is a devil’s workshop!!!
What goes around…comes around…
Life is so uncertain. Things change within moments and our life takes a sudden diversion to an unknown road which we are not prepared for. We live through it whether we like it or not. In the end it is for us to decide on how we dwell with what is coming our way.
We all have been told that we should have certain plans and goals, and we should work towards acheiving that one goal. But why do we forget, that our life is not in our control. I believe, take life as it comes and never expect anything. At this stage of my life, when I turn back and see, my life has never been the way I planned or expected. I never dreamt that I would be here writing all this one day and about all this. I never imagined myself in a situation like I am going through now.
Like all, I too had dreams and wished and prayed for them to turn into reality, but they didn’t. This is not the first time I prayed, neither this was the first time that my dream was not fulfilled. But I still don’t stop. Today, my mistakes are solely my mistakes and I don’t blame anybody for this situation. But at the same time, I feel I am blessed. I am blessed coz I know that my life has something different in store for me. And I was going against the wishes of my destiny. And destiny always wins over my plans. It’s amazing to have our lives controlled by something someone unknown. Something which cannot be described and someone who does not exist. Yet we still make plans and we all strive hard to fight against the so called destiny.
Sometimes, I feel life is just about playing hide and seek with destiny, where the destiny always wins. Nothing comes free and neither does life. We need to pay back everything. It’s all karma. And nobody has an option when it comes to life. But the importance of life lives in how best we make of what is chosen for us coz whatever has to happen will happen.
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