tune kyu na kaha…
maine keh to diya
par tumne samjha nahi
dil ki baatein jo thi
woh kahan mit gayi
tumhara haal na mera sa hai
tumhari khushi mein bhi gham sa hai
na hum keh sake
na tum samajh paaye
dil ki baatein jo thi
woh dil mein hee reh gayi
tumne apna jahan hai bana liya
kho se gaye ho naye jahan mein tum
baat adhoori chod gaye ho tum
iska ehsaas na ab tumko raha
phir se aaye ho nazar mein tum
dil mein uthi hai chahat phirse
jaane kyu yeh umang ab hai chidi
jab iska na matlab koi raha
lamha beet gaya
ab na ho phir pehal
kuch baatein adhoori hee sahi
Let live!!!
She decides,
to go with the wind,
carrying the pain and the cries.
She is scared,
She fears the road,
She weeps and she screams.
She tries to move,
with the time,
with the wind,
and no sign.
She senses,
a new breeze,
coming her way.
She is confused,
She has to decide,
She wants to disappear.
She has no option.
She decides,
to go with the wind,
with the future.
A future,
worth living,
worth risking.
Showers again….
It’s quite some time that I even logged into wordpress account. Off late, I have been quite occupied with my work and several other things and thank God for keeping me so busy, inspite of the fact that I have been frustrated to an extent due to my work. But I still want to thank you for keeping my mind off the thoughts that tortured me.
It is true that time heals everything, and I have changed with time and so have my thoughts. I am no more the same person I used to be while I was in school, college or a few months back. And yes, I like the change. I feel good about the circumstances that have got changes within me. And, I feel good about myself. I feel I have crossed several milestones in my life.
I have always asked God for the better things in my life, and he has been too generous towards me. And as well made me realize of the pros and cons of my desires:). I just want to thank you for keeping me going strong through the times when I had lost all the faith in humanity and in you. And you never fail to get back my faith in you by giving me the best I ought to have.
Thank you for everything and love you for all the happiness you’ve got in my life. Be with me always. Love you.
This is me…
Sometimes I feel there is a lot I can tell you about me, and sometimes I am left searching for words to describe me. And that is me, confused, daring, honest, unpredictable, detached and unconventional. A typical Aquarian best described by Linda Goodman with a few exceptions.
I believe freedom to live life your own way is every individual’s right, and to me my freedom is very important. Freedom to me means not living life on others terms, be it the people who I love or my colleagues at work. I hate being controlled and guided in their own way. If you have thoughts, just give me the options and leave it to me to make my decisions. Do not force your decisions on to me, I get highly agitated. Set me free to learn from my own mistakes. This is not my attitude, this is how I am. I will love you and respect you all the more once you let me be the way I am. Do not possess me, I belong only to myself.
I still don’t know what kind of a man I would like to spend my entire life with. I have given a serious thought to this facet of my life, and am still doing the analysis. But one thing is for sure, I cannot love someone unless he is my very good friend. He has to be someone who knows me in and out. He has to be someone whom I respect and admire, a respect not demanded. He should be someone who would know when I need space and when I want to be wanted. He should be conversative, smart, loyal, inspiring, interesting, flirting and someone who could make me laught out loud even when I am sixty. I am not asking for a miracle to occur, but a hope still remains.
Keep the faith!!!
We make mistakes. We hurt others emotions knowingly and unknowingly. We believe our life is more important than other’s. Sometimes we even annoy others for no reason. We scold people. We curse people. We blame others for our incomplete dreams and aspirations. We believe we go wrong because of others influence on our decisions. We make our own decisions and yet fear the outcome. And there are many like these people, including me. We all want the best for ourselves and we do realize what all we lose on our way of getting the best. And then we hate ourselves and believe that everything happened for the best, which I can never figure out, no matter how much I try.
I have crossed twenty five years of my life and am still not sure what I want from my life. Do I really want anything out of my life? This question keeps haunting me several times and I never find an answer to it. All I want is to be happy and just happy. And this happpiness is very very very expensive which I only happen to get in bits.
But now I’ve realized that happiness is in being happy with others. Your happiness has no meaning when it hurts others. I’ll try not to live a lie again. And today is the day I turn my life around the way it should have been. I have realized that I got to move on and be whom I am. And I am gonna do everything I can.
Spirit to LIVE…
I believe I don’t need people or anyone around me to make me happy. My happiness lies with me and in how complete I feel with myself rather than depending on someone to make me feel happy. I believe every woman should live life the way she would be happy with herself rather than believing that there is someone else to make her happy.
I have seen many women who believe their life begins and ends with their husbands. Their life is all about sacrificing for the one man who in no way has ever respected her decisions. These men always believe that they are right and never consider their partner’s decision or their happiness. And at the same time, it is the wives of such men who do not even have the courage to stand up for themselves. There are several such women who have no position in their family. It is not that I hate men, it’s just that I don’t respect such men; and such men demand respect as though it is their right to be honoured.
We deserve a good life not because we are women but because it is every individual’s right. And the day we realize that our happiness does not depend on one person, we can live to be happy even within a crowd of thousands or just by ourself. Be happy with yourself and welcome the change in your life with a big smile.
He is….
He inspires me to think and grow
He admires me when I achieve a little
He encourages me when I lose faith
He appreciates me when I want to be
He needs me more than I do
He supports me when he knows I am right
He listens when I want someone to be heard
He understands what I want when
He smiles when he sees me happy
He understands why I am depressed
He knows when I need him
He knows what is important to me
He is my best friend
He is my soulmate
He is ….. a DREAM!!!
Deviled!!!
Sometimes, some people are so annoying. They just can’t stop praising themselves. All they need is someone to whom they can tell how great and lucky they are. And you’re there listening to their shit with just a hmm…. and it sucks, especially when your mind is playing games and you are trying to get your priorities clear.
And such people just bump in at the most unexpected time and irritate you, thereby making you realize what you have lost and what you don’t have. All what I feel like telling them is “I hate to have this blasted discussion”. It is that minute of time when you just want to close all your doors at their faces and say good-bye. All what you can hope is that you get one stupid call and escape them for the moment. But none of such things happen, and you are there with a big artificial smile and saying hmm.. right… yeah… and feel so pathetic. You can feel your patience being tested and sense how fast you are losing it.
Oh!! My life!!:)
@$#@%%#$^#@
hi!!
hi!!
how r u??
u know it very well..
yeah..
so.. whats going on??
nothing much.. just going on…
hmmm…
anything special…
nah…
then..
u suck..
i know, i do…
hmm..
so what’s happening lately..
nothing.. bas chal raha hai..
hmm..
now what…
nothing….
hmm….
yeah…
k.. bye..
bye.. tc
Stranger!!!
I don’t know whether this happens only with me or have you also been in such situations??? Sometimes, some stranger just keeps passing by you very often making his presence felt, for no reason. But you do have some wierd thoughts running through your mind which also gets a naughty smile on your face.
As of now, I am thinking the same. There is a guy who seems to have been crossing my mind very often lately. It was almost two months back when I first saw him at a lounge. Our eyes met once again while we came out of the lounge’s restroom, and he smiled..a crooked smile though and he looked very cute thennnn. And then I see him once again in my company’s parking lot and surprisingly, we acknowledge each other’s presence just through our eyes. Then we again crossed at a coffee shop, but this time I guess he did not see me. And just a few weeks back he happened to overtake my vehicle and did turn his head back and gave me a look. I don’t know if it was done on purpose or was just an accidant. And the last week, he appeared all of a sudden just to help me with the door at my workplace. And now, guess what.. he just happens to sit a few seats away from me. I now have to everyday cross by his desk to move around. Ain’t it strange??
It is strange … and I know there is no reason for this. We are just employees of the same firm with no other reason. It’s funny and just a thoughtless thing to have even passed my mind. But only such junks keep crossing my mind. Uh……. empty mind is a devil’s workshop!!!
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